It is a Season of Miracles!!!!

Date of entry: May 26, 2007
Author: Roxanne Cole

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During this I gave everything I have to do what I needed to do mentally and psychically for my
children. I have received enough help to keep my home as well as my car. During this though
I have put my needs aside to make this as successful as I could. My kids are still sane and
still act normal. My son has beat this cancer and we all are much better people for it.

A year ago I moved into this house had a local job and was starting the enrollment process at
ECC in September of last year. Life was totally different then, now as when end this battle and
I reflect on all. I honestly appreciate all I have received
I must also say Thank You to whomever it was that gave me some cash through one of Zacs
classmates mom. Even though I have received many different avenues of help. That
happened at a time when I was pondering the rest of this treatment, and I still have no idea on
how I am going to finish this without losing my home and my car. It was a light of sunshine
knowing that I was still in someone's thoughts.

So I am a bit tired and very glad to have made it this far. I have wondered many times if I have
done things right, the only thing I find fault in is my inability to take care of myself and get
overwhelmed by all the pain I have seen in my children varying from procedures performed on
my son to his hatred of this treatment, to my daughters trying to cope with my inability to focus
on them at times when they needed me and due to Zacs state of health I could not give to
them at that time. For they have not had they support they needed as well. Throughout this we
have had each other, as scattered as that was.

I have learned a lot on this road, all I am very grateful for. I have truly felt blessed as
challenging as all of the factors that are involved with this have been.

I have by no means done this alone.   I have felt very isolated during this and have been very
lonely as well. Now that the light is shining at the end of this tunnel. I only look forward to how
much brighter it will get.. I have had no control over what has been given to me and have put
my life in the hands of God to get through this.

May the light get brighter as we travel towards the end of this tunnel and we all heal from this..
I only hope that the people who read this truly understand what this road has been for us and
that your prayers are answered. My son will walk away from this with his life.

My best friend and I will be starting a new venture and along with a lot of help we will be able to
help other families along this path..No one truly knows all the different effects this has on a
family other than those of us who have taken this path. I hope that all of you can truly
understand the struggles we face when a child is seriously ill.

I hope I have set a great example of what a mother is..
                                                            Roxanne Cole

                                                              Mom to Zac, Haven, Destini and Salem

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