Roxanne loves her son Zach!

Date of Entry: September 1, 2006
Author: Roxanne Cole

Well, now to express my feelings. I am very blessed to have the have attracted certain people
into my life. First I will tell of how this experience has affected our lives, then I will share my
feelings on the rest.
I view this as an opportunity, my children before this happened were to a degree a little
scattered in their priorities. Now we have had to make a lot of changes in our lives and focus
on being individuals that really care about our lives, before this I felt my children really were not
inspired to care about the people they have in their lives. My children are very caring
individuals, I always knew that. Now they have the desire to show that and express and
embrace that part of their essence as human beings. I am very grateful for that, it was very
frustrating to see the lack of connection in my children, they have not completely accomplished
this, but they are making great progress. It is a great thing to watch children grow, they are very
luck to have the opportunity to learn this at their age. Although they have other things to learn
and other avenues to grow from during this, it is an opportunity that I am truly grateful for.
For me, this has been a roller coaster. I have been very fortunate to have a lot of people to
support me. My best friends Nancy, David, Lexi. Grandma Janie and Marc. Thanks also to
Becky and her family, her courage and wisdom is astonishing to me at times. I also have
attracted a lot of people that are available to support me also .I have learned to surrender any
type of control I have in my life. My life has taken an unexpected turn, through this so far I have
to work through the guilt I have for not being able to feel or express gratitude towards all the
people I have attracted into my life. I have learned a lot since this has happen and like my
children, I am learning to be embrace and be grateful for all I have and look forward to all that I
will gain from this opportunity to heal my son, who has the courage to face healing his body
from this cancer and all that this process entails.
I have to go now and tend to Zach, he just woke up. I will be adding another entry later today, on
all I have to be Thankful for

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